Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Fog, Fear, and Freedom

It is early October, the sun has been shining since early to mid August.  Today the fog rolled in and the sun is blocked, the day seems grey and dreary. Sometimes fog come in slowly and other times you wake up to it already surrounding you.  Fear is the same way.  In the past few weeks I have been privileged to be apart of a family who's child received her new heart. Later they would find out the previous diagnosis was wrong.  Their child may have another disease to overcome.  At the same time I watch, on facebook, the devastating news of a family losing their 4 year old  child after a biopsy. Their planned vacation turned into a fearful trip of pain and loss.  Another child had a cold that could end her life.  With each blog or facebook post I hugged my sweet baby tighter.
Fear begins with, "what if" or "did I". Soon it grabs hold and we can no longer see whats in front of us.  I could join this fear.  Kamryn has to eventually have a biopsy, her medications are hard on her kidneys, she could get a cold, an infection, a virus, go blind.  But I am choosing not to go there.  Each day I change, dress, feed, play and hold my sweet baby is a day that I choose not to fear the unknown.   Freedom has replaced fear.
This week Kamryn has learned to sign the word more and wave goodbye.  Today is her 10 month birthday. The fog is not going to make this a grey day. We choose to have freedom without fear.

Psalm 117

Praise the Lord, all you nations;

 For great is his love toward us, and the faithfulness of the Lord endures forever.
Praise the Lord.[a]